April Reflection

I haven't written in what feels like ages, and to tell you the truth, I don't know what to write about. A lot happened in March, twining together my personal, professional, and medical lives, and I am feeling a bit shellshocked. Too much information to digest at once. My brain wants to shut down.

I have been thinking a lot about what it means to heal: "to become sound or whole," or rather, to live through my wholeness. My wholeness is already there, but I have been living alongside it, not in it or through it.

I have been making health decisions based on the belief that something is broken and to get well I need to "fix" it. I am coming to see that I am not broken, and instead in my case healing is the process of aligning oneself with a greater reality.

I recently heard a student of Ayurveda say "Live with Mother Nature, or she will come and live with you." She meant that when we get off track, Mother Nature lets us know by showing up in the form of illness, disease, chaos, imbalance. We do not have the power to do as we wish without consequence. There are greater powers out there, and it behooves us to work with them rather than against them.

Happy April everyone, and I hope the spring is treating you well! (The photo above is from my garden - we had a visitor hiding in the lavender yesterday...)